Best Of Isabeau Miller’s FitCamp-August 2008 (Episode 25)

good job, jimmy! and thanks for everything:) the videos are a great way for us to ‘remember’:)
i keep saying it over and over again, but i’m so glad that i got to meet you and christine. the whole experience of fitcamp changed my life. i feel more aware of the food i’m eating and why i’m eating it and i got to let go of some of the emotional baggage i had been carrying with me for so long.
i don’t think anyone knows this but the night i actually pardoned myself off the treadmill due to lack of breathing (hehe), i went back to my room and had a complete meltdown. i was just having this battle with myself about who i was and who i wanted to become and that day i felt so weak and SO helpless and i hated that running up that hill on that horrible treadmill made me feel that. i knew even before i came though how i would feel going in, i just had NO idea truly how good i would feel coming out.
the fact that we ran parking lot suicides under 11 minutes and that we ran them a total of 4 times, is simply amazing!!! and all but 1 time we didn’t die afterwards:) hehe…. that first day was a nightmare, to say the least!
more than anything and like a lot of people out there i think, i want to be healthy and confident in who i am. doing this fitcamp proved that i can do things that i have doubted before. i mean, when isabeau said i would be a runner, that was the biggest compliment she could have given me although i still don’t know if i’m convinced of it. i’ve always had a dream of being a lightening fast runner mostly b/c of the fact that when i was in high school on the softball team i always heard how slow i was.
just to think now that i could actually be a runner of any kind is a really comforting and almost exciting thought:)
jacob’s words of: “kim, if you learn how to breathe, you can go far…you can do anything.”
those are the things that will stick with me the most and of course, all of you that were there with me. i know everyone was fighting their own battles of sorts even if i didn’t know which ones they were exactly.
i LOVE that you climbed that wall, jimmy! GOOD FOR YOU:) i think you needed that more than you even knew:)

one more thing before i wrap this book up..hehe
when i was 16 yrs old i went hiking on a youth trip in tennessee. there were 13 in our group total but only 7 of us actually did the hike. (bunch of wussies! haha) so we started up this mountain and i had NO idea what i was in for. as we got higher, the ground got steeper and my legs got tired….quick! we kept going and going and going. we had NO water and by the time we made it half way up i was having to cling to rocks and branches in some places to keep myself going. i had on my brand new white youth retreat shirt that was covered in mud by this time like the rest of my body.
after a 2 1/2 mile struggle to the top, we made it. we stood on the rocks at the top and just absorbed the beauty around us. not to mention, there was a lady at the top that realized we had no water and started giving us all these bottles of water she just happen to have with her. (that was a GOD thing!)
so at the top we took pictures, sat for a while, laughed, took some more pictures and we forgot all the pain that we had been feeling. we were just SO happy to have made it, to have FINALLY seen the top, the beauty that was hidden from us in the valley.
once we journeyed down and no limbs were broken, i looked at my pastor and said , “you know Bro James, this made me think about our journey with God or even our journey in life. We are fighting so hard to get to the top and we fall down, we get completely filthy, we’re hanging on for dear life at times, but we keep going, and we finally make it…..and it’s so worth it.”
i was an insightful 16 yr old apparently, but this fitcamp made me think of that day and that mountain. i think all of us are reaching for the top and no matter what obstacles come and no matter how much we fall in the dirt, we’re going to keep going:)
that is definitely my hope……

thanks again, jimmy! i love my fitcampers!!!
kim

Awwww, Kimmy, I miss you guys!!! I’ve thought about all of you at least 10 bazillion times since we’ve been back, especially when I’ve been working out. I have a special surprise for all of you coming soon. WOO HOO! Keep up the great work on your progress and thanks for sharing your story.

–Jimmy